Today is my birthday!!! Happy Birthday to me!!!
I woke up today with the realization that age does really creep up on you!!! – now picture Joey in that F.R.I.E.N.D.S episode screaming “why God?! Why?!”
When I was younger (much younger than I am today haha!) and asked to write essays about ‘how do you see yourself in ten years’ during entrance exams and English Literature assignments I have always wrote that by this time I would have my own family, my own small business and substantial savings to live comfortably.
Well it seems like fate and God has a different plan. I have yet to meet the man with whom I am to start a family with, I haven’t my own business – I funded a Laundromat with my brother but that is being handled by my mom now so it’s not technically mine, and though I have some savings – I guess I can’t rely solely on that for a planned early retirement.
I may not be where I have envisioned my self to be years ago but I am grateful nonetheless.
I have had the luck and opportunity to work abroad. I have always dreamed of visiting foreign lands but I never saw my self working abroad and I consider that day when I saw the advert for a job in banking in the UAE one of the luckiest and happiest coincidence/ fate/ blessing I have ever had. Working abroad came with a bonus – I got the (wonderful) challenge of living independently which if I fully embraced. Freedom is a tricky thing and though I have made some minor mistakes (nothing major major!) I stuck with my morals and beliefs and (hopefully) didn’t do anything to put myself and family to shame.
I’ve had the good fortune to do a bit of traveling too. I can’t forget my first trip abroad, looking out the plane window and seeing the beautiful Hong Kong harbour, I was awed and with eyes brimming with tears I could not help but whisper a word of thanks to God. I really do love to travel – the fuss of packing, airport security, getting lost only to stumble upon some hidden culinary gem or point of interest is one great adventure. I love it so much that if I could be magic or have superpowers I’d choose to be able to apparate, be in two places at once or fly so I could go exploring all around the world.
Working and traveling abroad allowed me to meet, get to know and socialize with people from different cultures – I have improved my people skills with that somehow – I still am shy and can shut up like a clam at times but I think I am more thick-faced and a bit confident now around people.
I have had the opportunity to do my bit my participating in civic groups and charity events – the UAE has an abundance of organizations and events for good causes and it helps built character and a sense of humanity.
I have a (somewhat) clearer sense of self – I may not like me at times but I learned not to be too much self-critical, find the beauty in me, not beat myself too much for some mistakes and pat myself on the back at times for a job well done.
I have retained a childlike and youthful disposition and look to match – sorry I just had to get that in haha! There are times when I wonder if I am being immature but I’d like to think that I am not – I just choose not to be corrupted with grown-up issues but enjoy and carry on life and all it’s struggles with the innocence and wisdom of a child.
And I am grateful and thankful that I am able to celebrate this *bleep bleepth* birthday of mine in good health and spirit with the love of friends and family.
… and (this just in) I am thankful for the unexpected delivery of loveliest bouquet of flowers from my adorable godson Shan!!!